Wednesday, April 28, 2010

the Horse

Getting back on the horse is harder than you think - especially if you never lift a leg.

That just came to me, you can call me Solomon if you want. The truth is, (man, I say that a lot) - the above saying goes for so many different things and areas of our lives. Often we think about things and just don't do them. We figure out ways not to bother trying - we're too busy, we're too tired, we're too... you fill in the blank. The Arbinger Institute, in their book Leadership and Self-Deception, call this self-betrayal. I think that's fair. Most of the book is all about relationships, relating to people and being "in the box" to someone or "out of the box" to someone. But I think the concept of self-betrayal works in many ways. I think you could also call it "sin" - and when we decide that we're not going to do something that we got an inkling we should - yeah, that's probably sin.

I guess you could say, with regard to this blog, I've been betraying myself by not updating. Not because there's a huge host of people, waiting with baited breath to hear from me. But because this blog is also meant as a spiritual discipline, for me. So, once again, (I know, I know, I've said THAT before many times), I'm getting back on the horse...

1 comment:

The Good Seminarian said...

Don't be too hard on yourself. I have been blogging since before it was called blogging. I was writing all the way back to the days you and I used to wrangle Junior Highers together. One thing I know as a fact is that these things come in waves. You are on for a few months and then you are off. It is just how it goes. I think it is because life is episodic and we like to think our blogs are linear. Which gives us linear guilt.

I have stopped apologizing or even acknowledging long gaps in my blogs.